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My film “A Broken Puzzle” has been selected to screen at the Eighth Annual Sans Souci Festival of Dance Cinema

Sat 17th September 2012 @ 7.30pm

http://sanssoucifest.org/programPages/programAtlas2011.php

http://www.americandancefestival.org/projects/screendance.html

http://www.fringereview.co.uk

A Doll’s House

American Poodle

Big shoes To Fill

Flhip Flhop

The Freak and the Showgirl

Tie

Trapped

This is what we do for a living

the deed suspended

hovering

before any shadow is cast

before the lips part

before the point of contact

—ink, word, intent—

the world whips around me

cyclonic, enraged

and I sit in it’s eye

enveloped but separate

knowing

the next move

is significant

a 3 kg container of grit in a paper bag

reduced to a fine gravel, a white-grey rubble

poured clumsily out onto muddy red earth, along a fence-line of a paddock farmed by father and son

while teenage strangers

shot cans off a log and ride trail bikes around us

a testosterone din

rising up like crows

taking on all the bad feelings, omens, regrets, hurts, violence

and flapping with it around our heads

as we stumble through

this ritual to release the demons.

we are all in pieces

holding a moment between our fingers

waiting for the kettle to boil

getting dressed when half-asleep

going down a goat trail

running our hands over the deliciously knobbly surfaces

with the taste of forgotten passengers

soft moisture on our faces

being torn away

coming to a place outside time, beyond geography

counting our bones

hearing the light

ghost fingers, invisible touch

lying like a broken puzzle

every move is a message

a tilt is an affirmation

a lift is an invitation

the syntax of gesture is dense

I have coloured in a path

between my heart and my third eye

and it expresses itself up my arm in henna

India is taking me apart and moving through me

I am inhaling the cremated

ingesting trails of kin and caste

coated in a dust that’s carrying:
this crumbing temple,
that tilled earth,
hair of camel, defecation of cow, saree sweat, spit, urine, incense, sugar, spice…

it’s all a mixing vapour, moving osmotically through me—

the holy and the horrific

the putrid and the magnificent.

the pilgrims are parading to their pooja
and I’m standing to one side
keeping clear of their faith
side-stepping the decorated corpses
dodging the difficult question—”Why not married?”

the city of Shivas up my spine
om-chanting me into submission,
beaten with bindis, roped by rakhis,
the floral garland a noose around my lonely neck
(to be thrown in the ganga or fed to a cow)

all the hippy foreigners have the sideways head nod and the namaste
a hash pipe in their pocket and the lonely planet in their backpack
my camera is my shield, bouncing back their stares
at this ghostly apparition—the single white woman

she’s striving to be a sacred text
but remains the nursery rhyme
falling off the wall
coming tumbling after
her back is a trappstegsforsen—a staircase of ordeals, sensitive to the touch

she is sitting on a bonfire
and the wives and mothers dance around its base
their hands joined in feminine rite of passage
the flames of traditional expectation lick around her
her words come out scorched, melting her resolve

she is in headstand on the top of the mountain
built on deep layers of watching, listening, teaching, learning, crafting, distilling
it is always a precarious balance
an ongoing aspiration, an individual pursuit
the wind whistles commiserations around her
and in the distance a mob of women carry their families uphill